#LetterByLetter: N (The Last Letter)


#LetterByLetter is something that me and my classmates who blog are doing during the holidays. We will go down the alphabet, one for each post and write what each letter means to us. It can be something symbolic or just a word that starts with that letter. The objective is to be active on our blogs and also to see who can finish all the letters first. This is the 14th and last post in the series because as of tomorrow, school would start again and this was just something for the holidays. If you want to look through my previous #LetterByLetter posts then just click here.

So the last letter, I’m going to write about is… ‘N’. Which reminds me of what’s NEXT and NEW beginnings.

What’s NEXT? If you’re talking about the blog, then I’m going to continue blogging about daily life, writing reviews and posting a quote every now and then. But, I guess I won’t force myself to blog about something if I really don’t have anything to blog about. That’s why I have the music review and quotes as fillers!

As for life, since the holidays are pretty much over, it means the start of a new school year. So there we have it, a NEW beginning. Unlike most people, I’m actually looking forward to tackling what’s to come because you just never know what to expect. Sure, there will be some rough patches and stressful times but I’m going to try to keep in mind whenever possible that I have to enjoy myself too. Because the only thing I’m worrying about is year two passing by as quickly as year one did. We all really have to live in the moment even when we’re stressed out and feel like killing each other when working on an assignment.

What’s different from the first school year is that, I have a better idea of who my friends are and I definitely have a better idea of my strengths and weaknesses. I know what I should work on. #SpoilerAlert: I worry too much and I need to work on that.

I’m also looking forward to newer experiences both in and out of school. Some people that I’m close to know that we have a lil’ something planned for November/December. Well it hasn’t exactly already been planned but it’s just something great that I’m already looking forward to. And if you backtrack a few months, there will also be an overseas trip that I’ll be going on. Trust me, it’s been quite some time since I went anywhere overseas (other than Malaysia) and so I’m really looking forward to it.

That’s actually all I have for this post But before I sign off though, let’s take a look back at #LetterByLetter. We started with nine people and are ending with ten. Yup, not that big of a difference but still that’s almost half the class. So… YAY! Let’s check in with what letter they have all made it to, shall we?

Minyi - L (Nice! Wasn’t expecting you to be so far ahead. HAHA)

Alicia - L (Was expecting you to be far ahead of me but loved the last post)

Chelsea - K (You skipped J, didn’t you! Oh well, those pictures in K definitely make up for it)

Shafna - I (I expected more from you)

Nica - I ( Hope you will blog more when not limited by the letters!)

Jamie - H (DALENE caught up to you girl)

Dalene - H (For someone that joined in a lot later, ‘H’ is acceptable!)

Vera - F (Hey! Why so far behind?)

Shiva - A (You took a break after one post… ONE POST)

I know it’s not a competition but if it was, I would be the winner for making it the furthest! HAHA. Alright, I just had to mention that. Anyway, I’m glad everyone except for one continued blogging and participating. After all, this whole thing was just to keep us active on our blogs.  And just a disclaimer, those bracketed comments were light-hearted if anyone has a problem with them.

Here’s to hoping for a great second year of school,



#LetterByLetter: M


#LetterByLetter is something that me and my classmates who blog are doing during the holidays. We will go down the alphabet, one for each post and write what each letter means to us. It can be something symbolic or just a word that starts with that letter. The objective is to be active on our blogs and also to see who can finish all the letters first. This is the 13th post in the series. HALFWAY POINT. But the holidays are already close to ending. #Damn.

‘M’ is for MIKA. Anyone that knows me, knows that I love Mika for various reasons. His style, his story, his songs and the list goes on and on. He is relatable and inspiring. I only became a fan early last year and that’s because I started understanding his songs. Back in secondary school, I came across some of his songs but I didn’t make much of them. However, now it’s different. So, I’m going to dedicate this post to some of my most favourite Mika song lyrics and quotes.

Let’s start with my favourite Mika song, Emily. I listened to this on repeat the day I discovered it. Why don’t you give it a listen too?

“Pourquoi tu gâches ta vie?”

- Mika (Emily)

Not trying to be pretentious by quoting something French. I did have to use google to translate what it meant. It translated to, “Why do you waste your life?” which really made me think about it. Why do I overthink and worry so much?  I’ve introduced this song only to a handful of people because this song is something special to me. So far, both my cousins and a friend have told me that they love the song too. So, now I thought why not introduce it to everyone reading my blog too?

The next song is another one of my favourites! It’s a song that tells you everything will be okay and to just CELEBRATE!

“Once I get up I feel better.
Then I pull myself together.
I remember those two letters.
It will be OK.”

- Mika (Celebrate)

Once again, I love this song because of the meaning behind it. Especially since I worry so much, I love any song that tells me it’ll all be okay. It doesn’t hurt that Mika looks amazing in the video too. *wink*

The next set of lyrics might be hard to understand or relate to. I loved the song and then I realised that it was in reference to your conscience. At least, that’s what I think. Because sometimes your conscience weighs you down.

“There’s a one foot boy eleven stone. 
He’s sitting on my shoulder .
I’m too scared to look away, 
He comes here almost everyday. 
And everyday I push him off and tell him boy we’re over.”

- Mika (One Foot Boy)

Up next, it’s lyrics about changing your perspective on life. We all think we have it bad, but there’s almost always someone who has it worse. So, keep that in mind the next time you complain that your life is hard.

“So I was sitting there in the bar and this guy comes up to me and he said “My life stinks” and I saw his gold credit card and I saw the way he was looking at people across the room and I looked at his face and you know, what a good looking face, and I just said, “Dude, your perspective on life sucks”.

- Mika (Blame it on the Girls)

I’ve only got two more quotes so hang in there! Here’s something simple that I think should be on a T-shirt or a cup.

“Don’t let the stars get you down.
Don’t let the waves let you drown.”

- Mika (Billy Brown)

Lastly, I’ve got a quote from one interview Mika did. I actually wrote down three quotes and I’ve already posted two of them as quotes in the past. You can find them if you look through the quotes category. So, I’ll post the last one. I can relate to this because I’m a writer and sometimes we get stuck. This reminds me that it’s normal.

“It was like, there we go, I’m writing and I don’t know how it’s happening and that’s the secret. Because most of the time, you write when you’re trying to make something happen but when it’s really good you don’t know how the fuck it’s happening.”
- Mika
These are just some Mika quotes I can relate to. There are definitely plenty more but I just wrote those that came to my mind. I was also getting lazy halfway through. With that, I hope this post has made you a fan of Mika. If not, I’m still glad you read the post anyway. Until next time,

#LetterByLetter: L

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From Left to Right

Top Row: Me,Wyman, Jason, Deswanto, Rozana & Benjamin.

Bottom Row: Jamie, Lauren, Viena, LeJing, YuXue, Htet & Tiffany.

#LetterByLetter is something that me and my classmates who blog are doing during the holidays. We will go down the alphabet, one for each post and write what each letter means to us. It can be something symbolic or just a word that starts with that letter. The objective is to be active on our blogs and also to see who can finish all the letters first. This is the twelfth post in the series.

For this letter, I’ll be talking about my experience during the LEAP camp. It was definitely an interesting journey which helped us become better leaders. I came up with tons of reality TV references throughout the camp. Just ask Jamie. Here’s my summary of each day.

Day 1: CHECKING IN & CHALLENGES. I must say it wasn’t the best day. I was nervous as always. And carrying a sleeping bag, day pack and luggage bag only made me feel more tense. The only thing that comforted me was knowing that I had three people I already knew quite well in my camp team. And I was just planning on sticking with them throughout the duration of the camp. On the bus, it felt like we were on Top Model. You know, the finalists making their way to the Top Model house and settling into their rooms. Just that in this situation it was a campsite and we settled into our tents.

Now let me mention the activities. We had the general team-bonding activities. Started off with team name and ground rules. Our team name was, OMEGA. Then we had this, ‘arrange the cards on the floor while blindfolded’ activity which my team lost. After that was a three-way Tug of War. I’ve ALWAYS wanted to play one of these. But the odds were just not in my team’s favour. The other teams had big guys while mine had average-sized guys just like me. However, the purpose of the challenge was to show that we needed commitment and that it wasn’t about the strength or strategy. We came in second in that challenge, somehow. The third activity was some desert survival role-playing game which we lost in as well. Oh well, isn’t that a rough first day?

Day 2: RANKINGS & KAYAKING. One of the first few activities for the day was us ranking the top and bottom three leaders on our respective teams. Now, you can’t possibly tell me that’s such a reality TV thing that producers would do to create drama, right? It was really hard because none of us wanted to hurt each others’ feelings. But it was only for us to help each other by being honest. So, when we revealed our choices, there were some tears. Oh well, we were given a chance to bond after by cwriting notes for everyone in our team and sticking it onto each of our individual posters(which just had our name on it). We were only given some time for this, so we could only write about two to three notes. We were asked to write the rest during our free time.

The next interesting activity was kayaking. I was excited and nervous. I can’t swim and I didn’t trust the life jacket too much. You know that activity they do where they ask you to hold hands and form a circle. And then the circle will slowly move down into the water and raise both feet so that we float? Yeah… That one! I was prepared to be asked to do that. And we were. The last time this happened, I only dared to raise one foot. This time though, I managed to raise both and float and yes, it might be a small thing but I was really proud of myself . After that we got into our kayaks and practiced for the challenge.

The challenge was tough. You had the informers who would have to study a image and give information, the messengers who would receive and pass on the information and the architects who would receive the information from the messengers and draw the figure accordingly. And if you haven’t figured it out yet, the messengers were those in the kayaks and the other two would be on two different sides of the lake. Yup. I was lucky to be informer and not a messenger because I wouldn’t have been able to decipher what the informers were trying to tell me. Regardless, this was the FIRST challenge that my team won! YAY! It really helped boost our confidence. Anyway, it was just like a Survivor challenge too! I loved it.

Day 3: TREKKING & CAMPFIRE. I was excited for trekking as soon as I saw it on the camp schedule. Now, I’ve never been trekking but it seemed like a fun team-bonding activity. I pictured my team singing, laughing and talking as we made our way through the jungle or forest or whatever you call it. And I was half correct. We managed to stay enthusiastic by singing and cheering whenever possible but the trek was more tiring than I expected. From climbing over large tree logs to looking out for leeches and thorns, it was exhausting. We even got into the cold and muddy water which was thigh deep at times. Regardless, I’m not even complaining about it being tiring because it totally reminded me of Survivor. However, I will complain that it was really warm, that when we ended the trek, I poured my leftover water over my head. I tried getting my teammates to join me but they didn’t. Oh well.

For the campfire, each team had to come up with a performance because the entertainment was up to the campers and not the facilitators. So, representatives from each team planned the campfire activities together. As for my team, we rehearsed our performance which was a mash-up of a couple of songs that represented our journey throughout the camp. I was pretty excited! When it was time for the campfire I just let loose and had fun. Shouting out randomly, cheering and even jumping and skipping around closer to the end. After the campfire, it was free and easy but everyone decided to spend the time with their respective teams which was totally understandable. This led to one of the most emotional heart-to-heart sessions ever. Everyone opened up and so did I. I kept my tears in but I couldn’t hold them in closer to the end. So, I started to tear but I don’t think anyone noticed. It really made me respect everyone around me because we all had our own issues. And everyone was brave enough to open up.

Day 4: FINAL REFLECTION & HOME SWEET HOME. We had yet another emotional heart-to-heart session. And of course there were tears. This time, I tried to keep the morale up and was all positive with what I had to say. Don’t get me wrong, I was still very sincere and honest with what I said. After that it was lunch and we got our phones back. So, everyone started taking photos. Okay not everyone, but I and a few other team mates started taking selfies with everyone on the team. On the bus ride home, it was another karaoke session just without the screen and lyrics but rather just the lyrics based off our memory. And when we finally returned to school, we were all glad it’s over.

I’m so glad I didn’t pull out of the camp. I hate camps. So, I wasn’t expecting to enjoy myself. But I sure did. Mostly because of the team. Omega was always the first when it comes to eating, showering and sleeping. I knew I could trust them when it was time to open up and they were also ready to have compete during challenges. Other times, we would just talk and laugh and have fun. I’m so glad I met these people. I can’t see myself in any of the other two teams. Yes, our team might have been the smallest. And yes, we might have started off  on the wrong foot. But we managed to bring out the best versions of ourselves and each other closer to the end of the camp and I’ll forever be thankful for this experience. Thanks Omega!

I know it’s been a long post. So until next time,


#LetterByLetter: K

#LetterByLetter is something that me and my classmates who blog are doing during the holidays. We will go down the alphabet, one for each post and write what each letter means to us. It can be something symbolic or just a word that starts with that letter. The objective is to be active on our blogs and also to see who can finish all the letters first. This is the eleventh post in the series.
After much thought, ‘K’ is for KING.
To me, the King symbolises being on top. The King is the highest, isn’t he? He’s always on top and that’s where we all strive to be. Whether it is in school or work, we all want that top spot and sometimes we go out of our way to get it. While we’re at it, we neglect the little wonders of life because we’re so focused on being number one. I’m sure I’m not just speaking for myself here. I think everyone can relate to this. I really do. So, I guess I just want to take this opportunity to remind not only myself but also everyone reading that as important as being ‘King’ might be, we should not forget that there are equally important things as well. What exactly are those, ‘important things’? Well they will differ for each individual. For me, I will say that my family and friends are definitely more important than the top spot.
Now, I mentioned that sometimes we go out of our way to get that top spot. Which brings me to the second ‘K’ word which is KARMA.
I strongly believe in karma which means I strongly believe in what goes around, comes around. There have been many instances where I’ve noticed karma doing it’s thing on other people and I’m sure I have been a victim of karma myself. It’s just one of the things that keeps me calm sometimes, you know? Just knowing that I don’t need to stoop down to someone’s level to get back at them or be malicious. I should just let it go and step back because karma will do it’s thing if the person really deserves it.
And here’s a quote to further emphasise my point.
“How people treat you is their karma. How you react is yours.”
- Wayne Dyer
That’s all I have for this post. Before I sign off, here is the list of my classmates who are also participating in #LetterByLetter. Check out their blogs for their takes on each letter.
I really can’t wait to write my next post,

#LetterByLetter: J


#LetterByLetter is something that me and my classmates who blog are doing during the holidays. We will go down the alphabet, one for each post and write what each letter means to us. It can be something symbolic or just a word that starts with that letter. The objective is to be active on our blogs and also to see who can finish all the letters first. This is the tenth post in the series.

It took me a really long time to figure out what ‘J’ stood for. Which is why I’ve been procrastinating writing this post. Plus, I just got back from camp yesterday. Anyway, I had time to think and I guess I have two words! JOURNEY and JEALOUSY.

First, I’ll explain JOURNEY. I strongly believe and agree that life is a journey and that the different phases are just various pitstops. There are ups and downs. Some people that enter and join in our journey and others that leave. But everything happens so fast and time stops for no one. It’s really sad if you actually think about it. We focus on all the wrong things and then when certain things come to an end we hope that it could last longer. Sigh. I’m guilty of this myself.

However, life is like a LIVE reality TV show that is recording 24/7. We should enjoy the good times while they last because before we know it something not-so-great will happen. But the difficult times are what keeps us going and motivated. At least, that’s how I see it. Yeah, I know I’ve probably wrote something similar to this before but I thought I should just mention it here, in this post too.

Next, let me move on to JEALOUSY. Feeling envious or jealous is such a shitty feeling but it’s inevitable. We all want something more than what we already have. Yes, I’m guilty of this too. I guess I get jealous because I get attached to people easily and wear my heart on my sleeve. So, I often think that I have something special with someone but it’s often not mutual and just turns out to be something normal for them. Not talking about some sappy love bullsh*t. I’m referring to friendships.

But you know, as Paris Hilton would say, “Jealousy is such an evil thing.” That’s actually from one of her songs. Don’t be too quick to judge, it’s a pretty good song. I would totally be able to relate to it if it was from the other perspective. Regardless, some of the lines are still relatable. Give it a listen?

That’s the end of my ‘J’ post. Shall use the rest of this post to just write a summary of the first out of two camps I attended during the holidays. It was my first camp in ages so I was definitely paranoid. Did I pack enough? Did I overpack? Will I be able to survive? And… I did. I wasn’t part of the camp as a camper. I was part of it just to help out with the games (GP). And since the camp was Hunger Games-Themed, the GPs were called the Peacekeepers. The camp turned out to be fun and I’m really glad I signed up. I made some new friends and met some of the freshies. I really hope that all the Peacekeepers keep in touch though. The Victors(Group leaders) did a great job and likewise the Capitol(Organising Committee).

And that above is my quick summary of the CASS Freshmen Orientation Camp 2014/2015. I’ll be away for another camp the next four days. So, until next time…


#Mixology: “Whether we like it…

“Whether we like it or not, we all compete with each other. Sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Sometimes we push each other to do better. But usually the biggest victory is when we don’t compete at all.”

- Bruce (Mixology)

Yet another quote from the same character from the same show. Love how he gets to say those wise words at the end of the episodes. I was skeptical about Mixology at first but now I’m officially a fan. Anyway, I just felt that this was something to think about. Being able to be happy for others and thinking win-win may not be the easiest nor the most popular option but it should be.

#LetterByLetter: I


#LetterByLetter is something that me and my classmates who blog are doing during the holidays. We will go down the alphabet, one for each post and write what each letter means to us. It can be something symbolic or just a word that starts with that letter. The objective is to be active on our blogs and also to see who can finish all the letters first. This is the ninth post in the series.

It took me sometime to think what ‘I’ stands for but as soon as I figured it out, everything seemed to just flow nicely. So, here we go, ‘I’ is for INSECURITIES.

We all have insecurities, don’t we? I’ll admit, I do. The popular kids at school probably do too. And even our favourite celebrities do even as superficial as they might be. Regardless, my point is, we aren’t always satisfied with the way we look or the way we act. Sometimes we can change the things about ourselves that bother us. Other times, you just can’t as much as you try.

As for me, I’m a pretty open book but when it comes to my insecurities, I hate talking about them and I really don’t know why. Not even my closest friends know what they are because I haven’t shared with them. Maybe I just have never seen it as a conversation topic or maybe I’m just not open to discussing my insecurities, period. However, I do believe you will be able to tell my insecurities by just looking at me. If you can’t, then keep guessing. This post isn’t about my sob-story but let me just say I haven’t always heard the best things about myself and the way I look, growing up. So yes, I’ll gladly admit that I do have my fair share of insecurities and that they have gotten me down before… Plenty of times… And they still do… Every now and then.

But I have noticed that people rarely associate insecurities with boys and men. And that makes me wonder if there’s something wrong with me for feeling insecure. Sure, maybe guys don’t admit their insecurities because it affects their ego by making them look weak. However, in my opinion, although our insecurities might hold us back at times, they definitely make us human. And I wish everyone realised that because hey, it took me some time to realise that myself.

Now, I’m not trying to glorify insecurities and saying that we all need to have insecurities. I’m just saying that chances are, everyone already has their fair share and we should remember that the next time we feel like we are all alone. Because while we’re worrying about the way we look, there are people out there without food to eat or a bed to sleep on.

That’s pretty much what I have to say for this letter. Before I sign off, here is the list of my classmates who are also participating in #LetterByLetter. Check out their blogs for their takes on each letter.










Until next time,