Last night, something was bothering me and it was the fact that I’m growing up. Yes, I know I’m only 16 but people make growing up sound like such a horrible thing. But doesn’t it have it’s pros and cons just like any other thing?
For me, I don’t want to grow up cause I don’t want to see people leave me for good. I don’t want to feel like I can’t do all the “fun” things I did as a child or teenager. Everyone says that the “Teenage years” of your life will be the most memorable and exciting. I can see that but although I probably have at least another two years in that phase, it all seems like it’s moving too fast for me. I also understand that we have to “live in the moment” and not worry so much about the future all the time. But it’s just hard to do sometimes. Like when I see the distance between me and my cousins becoming wider as we grow older. (Funny how I thought it would be the other way around) It becomes hard to re-create the good ol’ times.(At least for me)
Anyway like I said earlier, there are definitely some pros to growing up. I’ve always had the idea that most celebrities make something of their lives when they are older. And I really hope to make something of myself and my life when I’m older too. Maybe getting a dream job that I’ve always wanted or even having my own reality show.(or even hosting one) And having my own star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame is just another one of those things that I dream about. Oh and not to forget making an impact in one way or another.
It just takes me some self-assurance to realise that there will always be something to look forward to. So although all this worrying might be premature. I just had to get it out of my system and enjoy every moment while not dreading growing up.